Minus the freak.
Nearly every pic he's got a drink, because that's more important than his daughter.
Sunday 15 September 2013
Neil Enjoying Himself Whilest Ignoring His Daughter
Nearly every pic he's got a drink, because that's more important than his daughter.
Wednesday 11 September 2013
July - August 2013
Well I've had nothing but problems with Sienna since her return from her father's. She won't socialise with her friends any more just picks fights with them, plus I've had to give up work until she's in full time school because I can not leave her with anyone as she gets so distressed and clingy it breaks my heart.
It turns out Neil is in a relationship and has been since 6th March 2013, so what was all the touchy feely stuff about in April and the i love and miss you both with most of the telephone calls that i have made to him since our return from Sunderland?? He used to class this as cheating when he and I was together but now it's him doing it with his ex it's ok. One rule for me and another for him.
This explains some of sienna's behaviour because not only did he put her in an awkward situation with a complete stranger and hope she would accept it, he also neglected her.
She was there for 10 days and for five of those 10 days he refused to bath her with a lame excuse about her not wanting to bath because of blisters on her feet.
I've had no opinion but to talk to children's services about his actions to get told that his reasons are lame, he's the adult and he should not allow a four year old to rule him over hygiene. They also advised me that in future contact should be in her own home.
Sienna is constantly telling me now that she hates her dad. That she never wants to see him again. When asked why she says he's with Louise.
She asked me to tell him she doesn't want to know her dad while he is with this woman. I have done this to get the following responses....
"If she hates me that much I'll do the right thing and fuck off out I'll life"
And
"I haven't got a chance when you're twisting her mind have I? I'm not giving Louise up so get over it."
I had to go the toilet after reading them messages because they made me violently sick. Not only is he accusing me of emotionally abusing my daughter (something I might add I would never ever dream of doing), but he's also decided to give up his own flesh and blood for a woman and play happy families with her and her kids. I'm sorry but there's one word for it and that's disgraceful.
Everyone deserves some sort of happiness but how many of you are willing to put yourselves before your four year old child's happiness?? I know her happiness comes before my own. His excuse is 300 miles.. Well I'm sorry but that is no excuse.
WHO IN THEIR RIGHT MIND COULD POSSIBLY PUT THIS THING..
BEFORE THIS PICTURE OF INNOCENCE AND BEAUTY????
How can anyone do that to an innocent child?
All I can say is I hope he's happy with his new family because his daughter is in pieces.
It turns out Neil is in a relationship and has been since 6th March 2013, so what was all the touchy feely stuff about in April and the i love and miss you both with most of the telephone calls that i have made to him since our return from Sunderland?? He used to class this as cheating when he and I was together but now it's him doing it with his ex it's ok. One rule for me and another for him.
This explains some of sienna's behaviour because not only did he put her in an awkward situation with a complete stranger and hope she would accept it, he also neglected her.
She was there for 10 days and for five of those 10 days he refused to bath her with a lame excuse about her not wanting to bath because of blisters on her feet.
I've had no opinion but to talk to children's services about his actions to get told that his reasons are lame, he's the adult and he should not allow a four year old to rule him over hygiene. They also advised me that in future contact should be in her own home.
Sienna is constantly telling me now that she hates her dad. That she never wants to see him again. When asked why she says he's with Louise.
She asked me to tell him she doesn't want to know her dad while he is with this woman. I have done this to get the following responses....
"If she hates me that much I'll do the right thing and fuck off out I'll life"
And
"I haven't got a chance when you're twisting her mind have I? I'm not giving Louise up so get over it."
I had to go the toilet after reading them messages because they made me violently sick. Not only is he accusing me of emotionally abusing my daughter (something I might add I would never ever dream of doing), but he's also decided to give up his own flesh and blood for a woman and play happy families with her and her kids. I'm sorry but there's one word for it and that's disgraceful.
Everyone deserves some sort of happiness but how many of you are willing to put yourselves before your four year old child's happiness?? I know her happiness comes before my own. His excuse is 300 miles.. Well I'm sorry but that is no excuse.
WHO IN THEIR RIGHT MIND COULD POSSIBLY PUT THIS THING..
BEFORE THIS PICTURE OF INNOCENCE AND BEAUTY????
All I can say is I hope he's happy with his new family because his daughter is in pieces.
March - April 2013
It has been a busy month. I'm saving hard and making arrangements to visit my friends in Sunderland for Easter week.
I'm really looking forward to seeing Neil again. I know I see him every time I face time him but that isn't enough.
When I left 11 months ago it was like someone stabbed me in the heart.. All it would have taken was for Neil to tell me he still loved me and wanted me to stay and i would have cancelled the move. I was heart broken and it has caused so problems because I can't believe how he could give us up with out a fight. The most he said back then when i rang him in tears was "I don't want you to go".
It was like we had never been away. I always got kisses and cuddles from Neil and now was no different. God I had missed this.
We was with each other every day. We kissed, we cuddled even walked round town one day hand in hand like we used to when we was together. I was in heaven. I thought "yes he still loves me. He's going to beg me to come back home", but he didn't. I would have stayed up there and not gone home. My heart is up there and always will be.
I ended up having car problems so he helped me get a new one. We chased round everywhere but finally got it sorted.
I left on 5th April and went to my son's in Leicestershire. I rang Neil to let him know we had arrived safely. He told us he loved and missed us both. We told him we love and miss him too.
Things soon went back to how they used to be when we got home. Neil never contacting us. Sienna and I having to ring him all the time.
I'm really looking forward to seeing Neil again. I know I see him every time I face time him but that isn't enough.
When I left 11 months ago it was like someone stabbed me in the heart.. All it would have taken was for Neil to tell me he still loved me and wanted me to stay and i would have cancelled the move. I was heart broken and it has caused so problems because I can't believe how he could give us up with out a fight. The most he said back then when i rang him in tears was "I don't want you to go".
It was like we had never been away. I always got kisses and cuddles from Neil and now was no different. God I had missed this.
We was with each other every day. We kissed, we cuddled even walked round town one day hand in hand like we used to when we was together. I was in heaven. I thought "yes he still loves me. He's going to beg me to come back home", but he didn't. I would have stayed up there and not gone home. My heart is up there and always will be.
I ended up having car problems so he helped me get a new one. We chased round everywhere but finally got it sorted.
I left on 5th April and went to my son's in Leicestershire. I rang Neil to let him know we had arrived safely. He told us he loved and missed us both. We told him we love and miss him too.
Things soon went back to how they used to be when we got home. Neil never contacting us. Sienna and I having to ring him all the time.
June 2008
Well he did it. He finally pushed me into the arms of another man.
I'm not proud of what I've done but I can't take the constant accusations of having affairs. If I'm being accused of it I may as well teach him a lesson and go and do it.
I didn't do it just because of the accusations. It was due to the neglect. I'm here having his child but it's like the baby and i don't exist.
He doesn't come home til it's bed time. He refuses to eat what I cook. He's making life uncomfortable between John and I.
He refuses to be in the same room as John. As soon as John comes into the house Neil scurries of up to the bedroom and completely ignores me until I go and John him. Any wonder John carries on the way he does when Neil completely blanks him and wants me to do the same.
One Sunday we're heading to his mother's (minus John because Neil has band him from going). It's raining hard and Neil being his usual speed freak of a self with his driving smashes into the arse of a brand new Nissan Quashqi. He's going about 50mph in a 30 zone. (I've always been afraid of speeding cars since I was in an Road Traffic Collision 16 years previously).
Neil was more concerned about his car and the car he hit than he was of me and our unborn child. It took him 20 minutes to even remember we was in the car. Instead of doing what any caring partner would do and take me to the hospital he just took me to his mothers. I got more sympathy from her than I did him.
I should have realised that day that he didn't care about me or my baby but I swore to myself I would never be a single parent again so I stuck it out.
That was the start of my problems during my pregnancy. I couldn't sit down for long. I couldn't walk far. I Was in constant pain but still he did nothing.
I'm not proud of what I've done but I can't take the constant accusations of having affairs. If I'm being accused of it I may as well teach him a lesson and go and do it.
I didn't do it just because of the accusations. It was due to the neglect. I'm here having his child but it's like the baby and i don't exist.
He doesn't come home til it's bed time. He refuses to eat what I cook. He's making life uncomfortable between John and I.
He refuses to be in the same room as John. As soon as John comes into the house Neil scurries of up to the bedroom and completely ignores me until I go and John him. Any wonder John carries on the way he does when Neil completely blanks him and wants me to do the same.
One Sunday we're heading to his mother's (minus John because Neil has band him from going). It's raining hard and Neil being his usual speed freak of a self with his driving smashes into the arse of a brand new Nissan Quashqi. He's going about 50mph in a 30 zone. (I've always been afraid of speeding cars since I was in an Road Traffic Collision 16 years previously).
Neil was more concerned about his car and the car he hit than he was of me and our unborn child. It took him 20 minutes to even remember we was in the car. Instead of doing what any caring partner would do and take me to the hospital he just took me to his mothers. I got more sympathy from her than I did him.
I should have realised that day that he didn't care about me or my baby but I swore to myself I would never be a single parent again so I stuck it out.
That was the start of my problems during my pregnancy. I couldn't sit down for long. I couldn't walk far. I Was in constant pain but still he did nothing.
Wednesday 28 August 2013
April - May 2008
Why can I not have an easy life?
It's constant arguing now. John bunking school. Or John leaving soiled clothes around the house.
How can I bring a child into this? It's not fair on it.
My first scan went really well. They've told us that it's due on October 15th. Everything is progressing as it should be.
Neil was going to take me out for my birthday but because he found a video of me masturbating on my phone he's adamant that I'm having an affair. Bloody hell he's even pointing the finger at his mates. There's not a single one that I'm interested in.
That's twice now he's questioned the paternity of my baby. If I didn't love him so much I'd show him the door. I can not take all this hassle.
That's two special occasions he's now spoilt due to his unreal jealousy. It's unbelievable.
It's constant arguing now. John bunking school. Or John leaving soiled clothes around the house.
How can I bring a child into this? It's not fair on it.
My first scan went really well. They've told us that it's due on October 15th. Everything is progressing as it should be.
Neil was going to take me out for my birthday but because he found a video of me masturbating on my phone he's adamant that I'm having an affair. Bloody hell he's even pointing the finger at his mates. There's not a single one that I'm interested in.
That's twice now he's questioned the paternity of my baby. If I didn't love him so much I'd show him the door. I can not take all this hassle.
That's two special occasions he's now spoilt due to his unreal jealousy. It's unbelievable.
March 2008
During David's visit there was an almighty fight between myself and my youngest son John.
John had a habit of doing unmentionable things. Because of this I chased him up the stairs to his bedroom. We stood at the top of the stairs arguing. All of a sudden John went to push me down the stairs.
Thankfully I have quick reactions and I managed to grab hold of the banister and stop myself from falling.
I text Neil, as he was at work, soon after that he rang so I explained what had happened.
Half an hour later Neil was home and again got very threatening towards John. I honestly believe if David had not stood in between them both Neil would have hit and hurt John.
I appreciate I was carrying Neil's first child but I also believe his behaviour was over the top.
From this day on it was like I had two families. Neil an I being one. John and I being the other.
Things got worse because two weeks later Neil started demanding DNA tests to be done on my unborn baby as he was adamant he was not the baby's dad. You can imagine the effect this had on me.
Nearly a month on from finding out I'm pregnant and things are no better.
Things are getting worse where John is concerned. The atmosphere in the house is unbearable.
John had a habit of doing unmentionable things. Because of this I chased him up the stairs to his bedroom. We stood at the top of the stairs arguing. All of a sudden John went to push me down the stairs.
Thankfully I have quick reactions and I managed to grab hold of the banister and stop myself from falling.
I text Neil, as he was at work, soon after that he rang so I explained what had happened.
Half an hour later Neil was home and again got very threatening towards John. I honestly believe if David had not stood in between them both Neil would have hit and hurt John.
I appreciate I was carrying Neil's first child but I also believe his behaviour was over the top.
From this day on it was like I had two families. Neil an I being one. John and I being the other.
Things got worse because two weeks later Neil started demanding DNA tests to be done on my unborn baby as he was adamant he was not the baby's dad. You can imagine the effect this had on me.
Nearly a month on from finding out I'm pregnant and things are no better.
Things are getting worse where John is concerned. The atmosphere in the house is unbearable.
Friday 16 August 2013
February 2008
Due to the constant hassle with the neighbours Gentoo decided to move use to the East End of Sunderland. We was just waiting to hear when we would get the keys. They also decided to refer john to a group that dealt with kids that caused anti social behaviour. The group was called DISC. Neil's appointment to go the hospital and masturbate into a tub so that he could have his sperm count checked. I went with him but he did not want me to go into the room to give him a helping hand.
I had to got to Grindon Walk In Centre to have a scan on my ovaries as I had problems with Ovarian Cysts. I remember the Sonographer asking me what in fact I was there for.
On Friday 15th February I picked up the keys to the new house and because of Tim's teasing about bumps I decided to buy a pregnancy test.
I did the test during the early evening as I was too nervous to wait until the morning.
I pissed on the stick like your meant too. Waited for like five minutes. Then I looked.
I wasn't too sure with the result so I took a picture and sent it to my former Sister-In-Law Sue Oakes. I got a return text from her congratulating me.
I was really nervous about telling Neil. He was at work and I did not know whether to text him, ring him or leave it until he got home. In the end I decided to text him, I was too excited and could not keep it to myself any longer. He did not believe me at first so I decided to text him the picture I'd sent Sue.
In return I received a video of him doing a daft dance around work.
The next morning we went round to his parents house and informed them that the wedding was cancelled as I was not willing to tie the knot whilst heavily pregnant. His dad sobbed bless him.
We had to be into the new house by lunchtime on Monday 18th February. It was hard going. We borrowed the works van again on the Sunday and got the move sorted. Neil drove it. His dad and sister and John did the moving as they refused to allow me to lift anything.
Two weeks later my eldest son came for a visit.
I had to got to Grindon Walk In Centre to have a scan on my ovaries as I had problems with Ovarian Cysts. I remember the Sonographer asking me what in fact I was there for.
On Friday 15th February I picked up the keys to the new house and because of Tim's teasing about bumps I decided to buy a pregnancy test.
I did the test during the early evening as I was too nervous to wait until the morning.
I pissed on the stick like your meant too. Waited for like five minutes. Then I looked.
I wasn't too sure with the result so I took a picture and sent it to my former Sister-In-Law Sue Oakes. I got a return text from her congratulating me.
I was really nervous about telling Neil. He was at work and I did not know whether to text him, ring him or leave it until he got home. In the end I decided to text him, I was too excited and could not keep it to myself any longer. He did not believe me at first so I decided to text him the picture I'd sent Sue.
In return I received a video of him doing a daft dance around work.
The next morning we went round to his parents house and informed them that the wedding was cancelled as I was not willing to tie the knot whilst heavily pregnant. His dad sobbed bless him.
We had to be into the new house by lunchtime on Monday 18th February. It was hard going. We borrowed the works van again on the Sunday and got the move sorted. Neil drove it. His dad and sister and John did the moving as they refused to allow me to lift anything.
Two weeks later my eldest son came for a visit.
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